Several of the rural firefighters and paramedics who first confronted the carnage at Umpqua Community College haven't returned to work yet or else they've tried to return only to request time off. Some can't shake the smells and sounds they encountered in classroom 15 in Snyder Hall last Thursday. One described having to help move a lifeless body to get to someone who was still alive, said Rob Bullock, deputy fire chief of Douglas County Fire District 2. One firefighter lost a son and a paramedic lost a niece in the massacre that left a teacher and eight students dead and nine others wounded. "This could be a career-ending event for many of them," Bullock said Wednesday. "This wasn't something we ever expected to experience. It's changed the face of our department forever." Forty-five firefighters and paramedics and five chief officers from the department flooded the campus that day – a little less than half of its staff. Its headquarters is about six miles away from the college.